😬 I remember when I had 4 jobs, hardly any days off, and I was still "broke" living paycheck to paycheck. Ugh. I hated it. I hated life and everyone in it (ok not everyone, but mostly everyone) *sigh of relief* I am very grateful for where I am now, it definitely took a few years to get here. I do not have a perfect life or all the riches in the world, but I am grateful for a flexible schedule and the opportunities I am given to live the life I want and do the things I love.
Years ago, I never thought I could ACTUALLY be where I am now, being my own boss and not having to rely on a "steady" income from a corporate job or big company. And I'm not even where I'd like to be, just at the start of the journey. Sometimes, all it takes is to move away from a scarcity mindset. The idea that "I don't have enough money", "I'm broke", "no hay dinero"...all those ideas, are ideas I had to kick out of my system because I did not want to have them become my reality. I had to stop telling myself I was broke and instead remind myself, "money will come, I am ok", and I have enough".
Sometimes we block ourselves from our blessings, our own potential, because we don't believe we are worthy or we don't believe we are capable of handling it. I've had fears about having too much money. WTF?! Seems illogical right? Who doesn't want more money? The people who have been told their whole lives that "we're poor", "we're broke", "we don't have enough", "we are not enough", "no hay dinero"...in other words, "it's not possible for me" almost as if instilling the belief that "I am not deserving". Who told you that? Choose to believe different. The person who told you that said that because that is THEIR reality, it may be true for them but I don't want it to be true for me.
Some of us have been raised to believe money is greed, money is bad, money is the "root of all evil". The root of all evil does not come from money, it comes from what is already in your heart and your mind. If you're an asshole, you're gonna do asshole things. Sometimes money "changes" people, but sometimes it's that they are just showing what is already in their heart, what is valuable to them. I used to think, "oh no, if I have more money, will I become an asshole?", but when I was making more money I was spending it on my family, taking them on trips, I was able to contribute more, and I wanted to share what I had been blessed with. That's when I realized, "wait a minute, I didn't become what I was afraid I would become because that's not who I am and that's not how I want to use my resources". I have a different perception of money now. Now I see it as a tool to give us the opportunities, experiences, and lifestyles we want to be able to share with those we love.
There was a time I was working 3-4 jobs. I missed out on a lot of things. I hardly saw my family. I isolated myself from my friends. I was miserable because it didn't align with my most important values. One day I thought, "What's the point of working and making all this money if I can't be with and spend it with the people I love?". When I think of the reason I want to make money now, yes, it's to pay my bills, be self-sufficient, etc. but I, myself, don't need a lot. I can live off of very minimal things. Maybe it is because of the way I was raised (in this case it's beneficial to me). It allows me to live with little desire for things and a much greater desire for memories and experiences. When I think about that, I realize I need more money because there are other people I want to share those experiences and opportunities with. I'd like to be able to give those I love the same potential to enjoy life and what it's really about. At the end of the day, when you're old and gray, what will you be proud of most?